You Think You Know, But You Have No Idea...

i had such a good weekend, shit was craaazy. right now, i was really bored so im sittin here wit rollers in my hair cuz i thought " im sooo bored so y not try out some new hairstyles so i can look real cute this weekend!" lol. i hope it doesnt come out cute today but when i try the same hair style on friday it looks like shit. shit like that always happens to me lol

IM SOO SICK OF THE SAME THING ALL THE TIME. ITS ALWAYS THE SAME CLUBS, THE SAME MALLS, THE SAME PEOPLE NO MATTER WHERE I GO...THE SAME EVERYTHING. I KIND OF WENT THROUGH A SCARY MOMENT IN MY LIFE ABOUT A MONTH AGO AND I BELIEVE THAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SIGN...GOD TELLING ME THAT I NEED TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE..BUT HOW DO I DO THAT?? I NEED A CHANGE IN MY LIFE. I JUST GOT A NEW JOB SO IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO START WORKING. BUT MAYBE ITS ABOUT TIME I FIND MYSELF A BOYFRIEND..I KIND OF THINK I NEED SOMEONE TO TAKE MY MIND OFF ALL THE SHIT I GO THROUGH INCLUDING CRAZY DRAMA WITH MY FAMILY AND ALL THIS BOREDOM. WHERE DO I FIND A GUY THATS NOT A SLUT, IS GOOD-LOOKING, CAN DRESS, AND HAS A GREAT PERSONALITY?? WHERE DO I FIND A GUY THAT LIKES ME FOR ME AND ISN'T JUST TRYING TO HIT IT AND QUIT IT?? SOMETIMES I THINK THAT GETTING OUT OF THIS CITY WILL BRING GOOD THINGS..I MEAN DONT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE CHICAGO, BUT IM STARTING TO GIVE UP ON THIS CITY..I NEED MOTIVATION..